i have been reading thru this, and my other diary..and i don't know how i was patient enough to wait as long as i have..

sure, we've had our difficulties...and our ups and downs...but people get through them, right??

but no, apparently it's normal for only one partner to soldier on and wait for change...because the other, quite obviously, doesn't care because she is her own person who can make her own decisions..

or at least that how it seems from reading through our past.
sure, i know my words are one sided..
but reading them, has brought back memories that point out times and places where it was only ever me who compromised...where it was only ever me who went without...or did too much...

i'm not perfect..

nor am i a martyr..

but i believe that it should be give and take..
but all she does lately, is take, Take TAKE..
and she's still taking..because she knows i'm about 50minutes away from leaving (i still have to pack cd's and computer)..and she's not at all interested in trying to do anything to make it right...

which hurts..

alot..

to think i wasted so much precious effort and time, when i could have given it to someone much more deserving...now that's what annoys me..



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