i drove back down here...didn't get in until 8:30, and after being up since just after 5am i was well and truely fucked..*sigh*..
i went to visit the ex as soon as i got to town..but she wasn't home..which is probably a good thing...but yeah...
then i came to visit mum and pog, and then i went straight around to kater and ants..had a few drinks..watched some tv..and went to bed... it was an awful night sleep..i dreamt about things that i thought i had repressed forgotten..but obviously not...obviously my thinking about it yesterday brought it all back up..
i miss her...i do...but i know i amn better off here.. here i am surrounded by lots of people that love me... here i can just wallow and be me..
i'm off to the coast tonite..for a night away...i really need a change of scenery..
but on another note, i hope she's ok.. i've not heard from her since i left - not that i was expecting to *sighs*