sometimes disappointment doesn't register in the grrl's voice..

rather..when she's *disappointed* with me it simply comes across as her being shitty...and then i get all sad and sulky..
there's a fine line between disappointment and shitty, i guess...
and i shouldn't take it so personally..

she just called me..and she's still feeling sick..
i wish i could be back at home taking care of her, but today i had to be up here for my centrelink meeting, and tomorrow i have orientation at the hospital, and on wednesday i have another meeting with centrelink that i have to attend of i don't get paid..

i had told her i would be home on tuesday nite..
and now i've just told her i wont be home until wednesday nite...
so you can see where the disappointment has come from..
*sigh*...

i wish i could go home to her right now...but i can't...

i'm really having issues knowing that i'm hadrly ever there for her when she really needs me...gawd...if i were here i woulda gotten rid of my unreliable ass a long time ago..so i guess it's a good thing that i'm not her, eh??

mind you..she's currently menstrual, so i guess that i shouldn't take anything she says in the next 3 days personally *chuckling*..

now can time just hurry up, move on, and be wednesday already??



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