there is no character trait that i hate more than that of a sook.
really.
all sulking, sooky bastards should be shot. or something.

grrr...
i am so fucking angry with the grrl at the moment that it's just not funny. not funny at all..and right now, i really need to vent before i break something.

the soul purpose of us coming back here was to spend some quality time together. sure, it's boring up here, and without sex or the internet there probably isn't anything worth doing. but it's nice. it's peaceful. and it was going to be just us two, just hanging out...but no...obviously that isn't enough to keep someone like her entertained, at least not for much more than a few hours.
yesterday morning i had uni..so i had arranged for the grrl to meet me at 1pm so that we could have a lovely lunch together...it wasn't much...and wasn't really lovely..but it was the two of us spending time together in *my world*...then during my 2 hour break we went into town, and did some stuff, and came back here and then it was that the grrl got sulky and shitty with me because she was channel surfing and i asked her to put 'gideons crossing' back on. i asked her nicely. and i asked her three times.
this was obviously a terrible thing to do, coz she got all sooky and stormed off into my bedroom..
"fair enough", i thought..and packed my bags and went off to uni.
then before, we were going to go down the street to do some shopping for groceries for dinner and somewhere between us walking out the front door, and making it to the car, she started sulking at me for antagonizing her...whathefuck?? sure..we were playing around and play- fighting and bitch-slapping and what not. but really, it wasn't that big a deal. then when we finally did make it to the supermarket, i asked her what her problem was and she told me i was being a bitch..
fine

i'm so fucking sick of her childish ways...
i hate how she can justify her acting like a 4 year old and treating me like shit, but if i do it to her then the shit hits the fan...
well the shit did hit the fan..and for once i have no desire to clean it up.

she packed all her stuff up and left.

so i called her...
to tell her that she had my jacket in her car and that she'd left her doonah here. i think she was a little surprised that i ddin't try to make amends or anything...but i so can't fucking be bothered.
i've been thinking for a few days now (since she got sulky at me for piercing the nipple) that i'm sooooooo over being in a relationship with someone who'se adult half the time, and then a child for the remainder...
if i wanted a child to have to deal with, then i'd have one..
but i dont want a child. i want a real, grown-up, reasonable girlfriend who is not going to sulk like a muthafuka every single time she doesn't get her own way..

i want that...
and i am going to start looking for that...

i think i'm a pretty easy going person...most people know what they can and can't get away with around me, and honestly, i'm not that easily upset. but when you do piss me off or hurt my feelings, then goddamnit i'm not just going to nod, smile and say "that's ok"..

grrrr...

but i guess what pisses me of most of all about her behaviour, is that it's expected of me to sit around the house day in, day out, like betty-fucking-crocker and wait for her to come home, but heaven forbid i dared expect 3 days of that from her...3 days...
3 measley fucking days..pffft..

i know it's boring here...but she has a sony, DVD's and her laptop (and if you knew the grrl, you'd know that those 3 things are like some kind of holy trinity!)...what more does she want?? and what more would we be doing if we were home??
nothing

nada
zilch

anyway...i'm over this....it's giving me a headache..

bleh..

i'm sure i'll have more to write later...and if i don't come back and make another entry, it's most likely because i will no longer have an internet connection..

*sigh*

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