so we've been on and offline together for the last few hours slinging shit and exchanging insults...and as much as i know i should play nice and try my hardest to make it all better, i just cant..

i can not get pass the fact that she left..

she packed her bags..

and left..

easy as that.

kinda makes me wonder about a person who can leave sooooo easily. sure, i left that one time after we had that huge fight and broke up, but she told me to go. today was nothing like that..there were no ill words, no yelling, no screaming...
she simply left.

i have a hard time trusting people who can just leave...
what i have an ever harder time with is her admitting that she only did it knowing that i would be furious..and knowing that she parked around the corner for 20minutes waiting for me to call...
why would i call??
she left, so she obviously wanted to go..why would i grovel and call??

i would have grovelled before, and asked her to come back...but i sent her an ultimatum of sorts, saying if she came back we'd work it out, and if she didn't, then we wouldn't..but conveniently for her, as soon as she got home she'd had a few drinks, so she couldn't come back...

now she is threatening to throw my stuff out on the street...which is almost humerous...she can do that if she wants, because it will always reinforce my point that she was, and still is, in the wrong...because innocent parties don't get vindictive...they don't turn malicious and do terrible things...

but it's good in a way...because it's showing me the side of her that i really want nothing to do with...

it's just funny how things can turn so sour so fast...12 hours ago, we were in bed and everything was honkey dorey...and now, it's all just kinda died and fell to shit.



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