then something will happen to bring it up again, and i do something stupid like say something via e-mail/chat/letter, and *BBbBbBooOoOOmMMm* it just doesn't turn into what i hope it will.
i need to either learn how to say things in person, or how not to say things on-line.
but enough of that..
i'm definately going to head back to melbourne tomorrow with kater. she's cooking dinner for sam and i on wed nite, and then sammy and i are going to go back to keilor for the nite. i just wanna be with her...
i wanna curl up next to her...
i wanna hold her and tell her that "everything is going to be perfect"...i just want everything between the 2 of us to be so perfect that both of us will have to pinch ourselves just to *make sure* that it's real.
yeah sure we both have issues...we both have problems...but nothing is too big or to bad to make me want to run away from this woman. nothing is too gory or too grande to make me want to end this relationship. an ex of mine once told me that i was the most persistent litte fucker that she'd ever met when it came to relationships, and that no matter how much shit she threw at me i would never give up. and i gotta say, that's probably the most complimentary thing that anyone had ever said about me and my attitude towards relationships.
i only hope that one day sam will think the sam thing about me. i hope that she never worries that i'm going to give up on her, or what we have...yeah, sometimes she drive me a little crazy, and sometimes i get a bit pissed with her...but never, NEVER ever have i thought that she isn't the one i wanna be with.
but anyway..i babble too much. it's 11:11pm..i've been up for like 18hours and i'm very, very, VERY fucked.
jul 2 - fuckers
jun 13 - bored
may 11 - GAMSAT
april 20 - adios
apr 13 - babble