starting music : "amazed" (acoustic version) - lonestar

i had planned on heading out to girlbar tonite and slutting some more..but the prison called and asked to cover a short shift at work (0800 - 1200) in the morning...
at first i wasn't going to bother driving 3 hours just to do a 4 hour shift, but after the last few nights of heading out and drinking i figured that maybe working wouldbe the better option..
i'm not a huge fan of girlbar anyway...so yeah..

my little *date* last nite was nice...she's a cool chick and we went out to dinner and had some drinks and played pool and inevitably ended up back at her place..without going into too much detail, i think that i unconcsiously sabotage dates and potential *insert boring labels here* because these chicks do not measure up to the images that i have in my head..which is possibly unfortunate, but obviously not something that is going to chancge any time soon.
i know what i know...i like what i like...i want what i want...so yeah...sue me for not being preparred to settle for anything less..

i had a strange conversation with my mother yesterday...we were talking about girls...and my wicked ways...and she told me that one day i will find what i want...and then she went on to tell me that i already had found what i want, i just need to do something about it...when i asked her what she meant (she often has these bouts of cryptic crazyness)..she told me that she's always believed linda and i were mean't to be together, and that one day time will stand still and the planets will realign and we'll end up back together again...now while i do not share my mothers enthusiasm (not quite the right word..but will do) on this topic...i will admit that it's a nice thought. linnie has always had a special place in my heart..and if truth be told she's the one that i will always carry some kind of torch for..i'd even go as far as saying she's the one on the pedestal that i like to measure the others up to...but...having said that....i also love what linda and i share now...the friendship we ave...more than anything...and i'm not afraid to admit that..so yeah...
*getting back on track*
my mother's kinda cute in her own nutty way..

anyway...i did have more to write but i'm too wrecked to think. i'm sure there'll be more on this later.



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