also...ali and i decided that maybe things would be better if we took a step back and took the *relationship* out of our relationship..

it turns out that we both have some issues holding us back...and that these issues aren't likely to change any time soon.

withut going into too much detail...i'm ok with it all. in fact (and i dont want this to sound awful in any way) kinda relieved....
i know now i was trying to make something out of something that couldn't be made.
but..i adore her..i think she's an extraordinary woman...and i want her in my life (and i wanna be in hers) as much as i wanted 1,4,8 weeks ago. nothing has changed there..it's just the romance side of things that was..errr challenging...

so there ya have it.

it's weird...cuz tonite is the first night since we *started fooling around* that we've had apart (where one of us hasn't been at work)...and i miss her...and she misses me (she sms'd me...how sweet she is)...and it probably sounds stupid given the circumstances, but it make me smile and go all gooey inside.

but more on all this later. it's late..i'm tired...and my laptop is running on battery..



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