well it's been over 13hours since i heard from her last...and i'm actually worried.
not because i wanna suck up and apologise - but rather cuz i know she was going out drinking, and god only knows what she's been up to..

so i did end up going to melbourne...i went and sms'd her and tried calling her to see if she could make some time for me...but nup...she's not answering her phone or returning my sms's...which hurts a bit...but i guess i really shouldn't have expected anything less from her.
she can be very hurtful in situations like this..
i dont want what's going on between us to get nasty - i just want some peace..
would like to be friends with her...but i honestly don't think that's possible. afterall, what kind of friend would not have so much as even called or just sms'd to let me know that she's ok...
because, despite it all...i do love and care about her..
i just don't wanna be in this relationship anymore..

today she sent me nasty emails pretty much saying "if you enter my house to get our stuff i will call the police"...but i went anyway.
she's often used that one on me...or she's tried making it difficult for me to take my things...but this time i don't care.
i want my stuff..and i want out. if she wasn't to persue friendship after that, i'm ok with that..but i'm not even going to bother if she keeeps up this *silence* game..

i'm really disapointed that she couldn't even fucking bother taking 20minutes out of her precious day to talk to me...but i guess what goes around comes around. besides, theres free alcohol and food at her office gig, so i can see how that's more important to someone like sam than trying to salvage any kind of relationship.

anyway, i had written more but i'm still not used to this laptop and i lost the lot..but now i can't be bothered..
i guess all i can really say is i'm disappointed. but i guess it'll pass soon enough..



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