sometimes i wonder if the grrl and i weren't as comfortable with each other as we are, would we fight the way we do?..
would we be able to yell and scream and carry on and behave the way we do towards one another if we didn't know each other as well as we do?
whatever the case...sometimes i wish we weren't as comfortable as we are so that we wouldn't act the way that we do..

all day today, i've thought about the things that we did and said the other nite, and i feel like such a fucking idiot for acting like such a fucking child. why can't i ever just say what's on my mind without beating aroung the bush and making everything so much worse than it actually is??
not that i'm blaming myself for us fighting the other nite, so i still say that little outburst was all the grrl's fault, but still, if i didn't act as infantile and emotionless as i do, then maybe our fights wouldn't be as hideous as they are...

but anyway..

so today the grrl's nephew came over and they played playstation all day, and it was really relaxing..it was great...she played sony...and i stuffed around online...and it was great. it's great that we can be under the same roof and not feel so compelled to entertain each other...but anyway..speaking of entertaining...i should go help her kick ass on "crash bandicoot - crash dash"...
it's such a great way to bond *smiling*

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