i should know that tranquility never lasts long...especially considering small cracks were starting to show.
i have no idea why it's so hard for the grrl to be nice to other people. i mean, i'm not talking strangers on the street here..i'm talking about my friends.
why oh why are my friends so fucking awful, that she feels she can act like a cunt to them?? and why oh why would she think herself so special, to honestly believe that they'd just accept it??
first it was kater..i mean...my closest friend on the entire planet can not stand my girlfriend...and it's gotten to the stage where kater no longer even acknowledges the grrls presence...
and now it's beginning with alison..
ok, so it's not like this is something that's just beginning...it's my fault for ever being honest enough to admit that i had a crush on alison...but now it's all over and finished...and the grrl still feels she can justify acting like a jealous bitch towards her..

last nite alison and rach came down here, and we all went to the rainbow room together...it was good...although sam got a little niggly...but all in all it was a good nite. and this morning, alison, sam and i all went to frankston to visit simone..all was good, until the way home when alison made the mistake of asking me about my course and how i feel about graduating (something the grrl never talks to me about)..now i'm pretty passionate about my studies, so of course when someone asks me i'm going to respond like a hyperactive geek. and the grrl got the shits. she justified this with the "but i don't know anything about what your talking about" excuse...which is funny, considering when alison isn't around, the grrl seems to know enough to get through a simple conversation..*sigh*

it's all about jealousy...it's about the grrl seeing what isn't there...and about her paranoia that i am more interested in what alison has to say...and it's really infuriating.
and right now, i am very angry..

and i should never write in here when i am angry...

now back to my assignment....grrrrr....only 16hours until it's due

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