she agrees that, no it shouldn't be like this..

but then she tells me
"i am just in a bad place right now..i can't be supportive of you when i can't even look after myself"..

how on earth do i compete with that??

we both need each other's love and support right now, but we're both so caught up in our own shit..so what's to be done??
i know for sure that i don't want to lose her, but a part of me also doesn't want to deal with so much grief..i know that is so fucking horribly selfish - but i really am exhausted...

i'm also scared that if we have some time out, then i'll lose her forever..



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