my grrl is sad...she's feeling like shit, and she's home alone while i'm up here studying and i just wanna be back there with her..
on the weekend, after i left, she came down with the same thing that caused me to throw up all weekend... so basically, she's been home alone, feeling like shit, with no one to give her any lovin and sympathy...
it's times like this that i absolutely hate being up here... i know that i have commitments up here, and for the next year and a bit i am pretty tightly bound up here...but still, that doesn't stop me from wanting to pack up my books and head home to her..
the main problem is, that when she feels down or alone or what not, is when i'm not there..obviously..i mean, it's not like she would feel alone if i were there following her around and harassing her..but i just hate that i'm never there for her when she seems to need me the most..and it's really giving me a complex *sigh*..
i know that this isn't all about me, Me, ME...it's about her, too..but the thing is, i really don't know what's going on in her head.
we try talking...but as i said, these issues only seem to arrise when we're apart, and when we're apart most of our conversations are online - so really, not much ever gets said or resolved...i know that the grrl feels as if we're two people living 2 separate lives that only cross every now and then...and i hate that she feels like that..
sure, since i've been back at uni we've been spending about 1/3 of our time apart - but it's certainly not by choice..fuck, if there were a monash campus closer to home that i could finish my course at, i'd transfer in a second..but unfortunately, there isn't..i either study here 3-4 days a week..or i study @ peninsula - which means i would spend almost as much time travelling *sigh*...
i also know this isn't also just about my studying and me being up here for school purposes...there's more too it...i'm hoping that within the next year mum will decide to move back to melbourne, and by that time i'll have graduated and there really will be no more need for me to spend any nights up here away from her...
but more on this later..
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