i flew back to melbourne last nite..my plane left canberra at 5, and 45 minutes and 800 kilometres later, i touched down at tullamarine where the grrl was waiting for me..
and let it be said- it was a cunt of a flight..but i digress..
we drove straight from the airport to here, and it wasn't anywhere near the mad house that i was expecting..in fact, the place and everyone in it was eerily quiet. not that i was expecting screaming and panic - it's just that i've never known my family to be so calm..and i certainly wasn't expecting calm on a day like today..
i didn't sleep very well last nite..but it was nice knowing that sam was there with me. i just wish she didn't have to work...it seems like such a waste her coming all the way down here and turning around and headnig straight back to the city the next morning...but we got up together and i cooked her breakfast..i did plan on going back to bed, but robbie heard us and he got up...then nicky got up...then mum...and then after that it felt almost rude for me to head back to bed..
as soon as i saw mum this morning she looked at me and asked me "is it real??" and i wished so much that i didn't have to say yes, but there really wasn't much else to say...
we're all heading back to melbourne today..to make funeral arrangements and stuff. dad wanted to be cremated..and i presume he wants his remains left/scattered somewhere in melbourne - i haven't asked about that yet.
there's so much to ask today, but it's all stuff that i can't bring myself to talk about..but i guess no one else is going to ask about it if i don't..it's times like this that i wish i weren't the strong and logical one..but then again, part of me is glad that i am..
jul 2 - fuckers
jun 13 - bored
may 11 - GAMSAT
april 20 - adios
apr 13 - babble