ok, so we just drove 2 fucking hours to get down here, and five minutes after dropping my stuff off she actually leaves..*shaking my head*..
*grrrrrr*
last nite i got a message from kate about the rainbow room, so as soon as sam got home i jumped on her like a puppy dog and begged for us to go..
she said "yes"...
this morning, even though she had a headache, we were still going..
so i go shower..pack...wait...wait...wait...then at about 12:30 she gets outta bed and informs me that she has a headache. no, actually, she has a migrane.
fair enough, i know how her head's been lately, so i offer to drive..i offer to drive there, out tonite, and home again tomorrow..she didn't agree or disagree...she got in the car, in the drivers side, and we drove 2hours in the pissing down rain to get here without so much as a word said between us.
ok, so she was upset this morning...and her reasons for being upset are great big vaild ones...but (and i might be naive and selfish here) but i dind't see any reason to cancel our plans..she probably would have been feeling better by the time to go out came around..
so anyway...we get here at 3:30...she's gone by 3:35..
i can't fucking believe she left.
ok, so i was a little cunt and i hardly spoke to her..but what could i say??? everything i said made it sound like was turning it all around and making it about me, so i chose not to speak. i figure i'll get into less shit that way..
but she fucking left..and i'm still fucking sitting here looking out the god damned window waiting for her to come back.
she won't come back, tho..
all i asked for was one nite..one nite out in however long..
we could've gone out...stayed for an hour...and come home to bed. to me, that would have been fair an i would've been happy..but no..she has to make it into some huge fucking deal where she'd rather make 2 2hour round trips in the god damned pouring rain just to prove a fucking point.
but...*sigh* i'm still looking out the god damned window, tho..
jul 2 - fuckers
jun 13 - bored
may 11 - GAMSAT
april 20 - adios
apr 13 - babble