it's been over an hour now so it's probably safe to assume that she's not coming back, and that i most likely wont see her again until i head back home.
when ever that is..
i was supposed to be going back with her tomorrow, but now that i'm up here i'll probably stay for a few days...lucky i packed a few extra pairs of jeans and t-shirts and undies...

i'm still upset..actually, no...i'm mad. mad at myself for being such a cunt, and mad at her for also being such a cunt. we're both cunts, we know that, it's just a pity we're also both so stubborn.
i never used to be stubborn...there was a time, not so long ago, that i would never have dared stand up to my partner - for fear of pissing them off..but thesedays..*wow*..
it's still wet and rainy outside, and i'm just worried about her driving all that way home in those conditions, in a narky state of mind, and with a migrane...
she should've stayed...i should have made her stay..but i didn't...so now i feel like an even bigger cunt.

i'm still looking out the window..but at least now i know she's not coming back.

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