OK, so i couldn't sleep..
not that i tried very hard..but i thought i'd just get up again and come play online, rather than lay there for the next couple of hours tossing and turning..
although sam called me before while i was at kates, and we had a little talk, i still feel we left some things unresolved..
and if there's something that i just hate going to bed with, it's unresolved issues *sigh*..
sometimes i wish that sam could just plug herself into my head and my hard and *download* my thoughts and feelings...that way nothing would get lost in the translation and we wouldn't have such stupid misundersandings. i really hate it when we argue about things that involve other people (especially ex's).
i figure, if something's gonna cause a fight between us, it had want to be pretty bloody big, not something silly and trivial.
but i guess there inlies my problem - just because i think that something's silly and trivial, doesn't mean that sam does. i know that i'm very aloof and blase..and that's she's very focused and passionate. but sometimes, i just can't help resenting the fact that we're being so cold and nasty towards each other over something that i would normally not even give a second thought to.
i guess basically what it all boils down to is that i need to be a bit more considerate and compassionate when it comes to sam's feelings - and not so blase and aloof when it comes to my own.
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