damn i can hardly believe that it's been just over a week since i last wrote an entry....i am beginning to think that this on-line diary has served it's purpose for me and now it's time to just stop writing and keep on living *yay*
kater and i went to the show last nite (the royal melbourne show) and we had a pretty good time. it was a bit dead tho, with i reckon only about 2,000 people there. but it was good coz it meant that we didn't have to wait in line for ages to go on rides/buy show bags/or use the potty..hehehe. all in all it was a good nite.
and i got to buy books
i bought this little pocket book thinkgy all about "Love"..it's one of those little books full of words of wisdom, poetry and prose.
afterall all the craziness happened with linda, i was soooo intent on "never falling in love again" but then i realized that that is a pretty unrealistic goal...as much as it hurt to lose linda, i can't wait to feel that giddy feeling that we all feel when someone special comes into our life. but i don't want to meet someone on a friday and be in a relationship on the monday. i want to meet someone...grow with them...be their mate...and then fall in love - yes, even if that means no sex...coz sex really fucks up a relationship [no matter how good the sex is]...and i really think that's where linnie and i made our big mistake - we were lovers first, and friends later.
ernest hemingway once said - "if two people love each other, then there can be no happy end to it"...sometimes i think that's pretty spot on, but i've since learned that it's not the end that matters, it's all the great shit in between that we need to remember and hold near and dear to our hearts. yeh sure my breakup hurt like hell and turned me into a walking talking (and crying) basket case...but i am passed that now...i'm happy...i'm smiling...i'm having a ball being free - but i still have my memories of my time with linnie and they will never change [and just for the record - the photos are down *so proud*)...yeh sure there were times when she was a cunt and i was a bastard...but all in all we had 2 pretty good years together and that's all that matters...but enough of linnie talk - people will begin to think that i'm obsessed *L*
but yeh...as much as i am enjoying my freedom (oh GOD how i am enjoying it) i would like to be part of a couple...not the kinda couple that spends every waking moment together, talks together, plays together, socialises together...as happy as i am and as much fun as i'm having, i'm just missing that spark that comes from knowing that someone out there is counting down the minutes until she sees me again..i want to wait around for the phone to ring...i don't want to live in someone's pocket [god knows i did that for long enough!]...i'm not looking tho...it's not like i'm out scouring the streets for my "ms right"...i know she is out there, and while i don't know where, i am happy in the thought that she will eventually come along. hell, as far as i know she might already be in my life and i just haven't clued into it yet. but whatever the case...i have a life to live and i'm certainly not gonna hold back on anything.
"Love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction"
~dannii
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jul 2 - fuckers
jun 13 - bored
may 11 - GAMSAT
april 20 - adios
apr 13 - babble