mmmm *yawns and stretches*...
it's almost 5 in the afternoon and i've just woken up..
*stretches some more*.
how bloody wonderful is that??
of course, this is not just me being a lazy sloth. no..i did a 12hour night in crtical care last night (otherwise known as "the college of knowledge") so i think i've earnt every single hour that i just slept.
i am actually thinking about going back and getting some more sleep (i have another night tonight)..but i felt the need to get online and check my email.
what can i say..i have no life..

last night i was lucky enough to score a ventilated patient..and all i can say is i hope that i get to nurse her again tonight. apart from the fact that she's terribly sick, horribly unstable, and extremely sedated, it's nice to just be able to sit there and focus on just one person. rather than running around for 12hours at night for a whoe heap of others. it also gave me a good chance to sit and study some organic chemistry for the upcoming GAMSAT (whilst listening to my ipod, of course)...heh

so the GAMSAT is still doing my head in. only because there is so much that i just do not know. like the basics of physics...pffft...i didn't do VCE physics in high school, which puts me at a real disadvantage. but i am learning.
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this time in 2008 i should have a good grasp on it *snorts*
pity i only have 55 more days to cram until my head explodes.
so my GAMSAT prep course is cominf up on the 27th..and i'm kinda anxious. only because i paid so much money (thanks mum) to have it reinforced about how little i know.
sure, i kick ass at anatomy, physiology, pathophysiology and biochem..but physics...it's really going to fuck me over and keep me from achieving my goal.

people are telling me to not be negative. they're saying i should walk into this tall and proud and believing i am gonna kick ass. but i'm not the type to set myself up for a fall..i do not want to be overly confident and cockey only to fail miserably.
i would rather doubt myself and be pleasantly surprised to pass. although in this case, i would be more than pleasantly surprised. i think i would pass right on out from sheer shock.
heh..
but we shall see..
i do not doubt mysef completely. i know i am intelligent. i have a good chance at passing this. but i have as much chance of failing, too.

so last night was the opening of midsumma at federation square. everyone who'se anyone was there (including sam)..whilse i was busy sitting on a stool watching a total stranger and waiting for her to breathe. man..i know where i would rather have been. but not all is lost. somehow i wrangled my rosters and i have both pride march and carnival day off (well..i have to kinda sorta pull a shifty to get to carnival day - which i'm still procrastinating about) anyway..
so there is a girl (how long his it been since i said that last???) and she's coming down to melb to hang out with me over pride. it should be good. althought being tennis time in melbourne the place where i had originally booked accomodation had fucked up my booking and cancelled it. but i got online and managed to book a cheaper room at the same place..heh..talk about luck. otherwise i was going to have to tell this chick that we'd be spending the night together wrapped up in the back of my car *laughs*...which could have had it's own perks.
so yeah..

i have another long night again tonight in expensive care..i should sleep some more...just so i am awake enough to study some more.

i might just be able to pull this off.




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