i emailed the grrl before..as much as i've been wanting to wait for this major project at her work to be over before i go hassling her with my new relationship demands, i just couldn't wait any longer..
ever since alison and i started hanging out again, i've had a bad feeling that sam is going to start hanging out with skank, if for nothing else than to even the score..so i emailed her, telling her what i was thinking..
she pretty much (really edited version here) told me that she thought it was hypocritical of me to be so close to alison, but at the same time get my back up when it comes to skank..
personally, i think skank and alison are worlds apart..but sam does not seem to think so..
alison and i dont have a history...nor is one of us in love with the other...skank and sam were lovers...and i know that skank still holds a torch for my grrl (even if the grrl denies it)..
and to me, emotional attractions are much more dangerous than physical ones...and sure, i might think alison is sex on legs...but that's as far as it goes. not only that, i've had many a chance to act on my thoughts, but never have. not only because i respect alison as a friend - but because i respect the grrl as a partner..
anyway, as usual, my email to the grrl snowballed way out of control..
i honestly dont see the comparison between sam and skank and me alison..not just because i normally defend alison - but because it's just sooooo different.
i've never loved or fucked alison..and really, i don't plan to...but skank has done both to sam..and that frightens me.
even if sam knows that she's never going back there again, it won't stop skank from causing trouble..

there is so much i want to write...but i wont...for now...
all i can say is, if skank comes back into sams life...i will leave...
i'm not doing that again..



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