dannii
july 21 - 6 weeks [2003-07-21 @ 4:32 p.m.]
my first day back at uni has been good...but long...
mind you, i some how managed to skip 2 hours worth of lectures, and head out with linnie..but it was good to catch up with her and use her as a bit of a sounding board..
by now, most of my mates know about the situation between sam and i...i wasn't really going to tell many people, but i thought (1) my attitude would probably give it away, and (2) why drag it all out any longer than i need to..
but it was good yakking to linda. she always seems to put things back in perspective. also, because she knows me as well as she does, i tend to really listen to her when she tells me "you're not that bad of a person, dannii"..so yeah..
and god knows i can definately use all the ego boosts that i can get right now..
i've been spending a lot of time reading through old emails from sam. some of them are so lovely..some so awful..but the majority are good. even the ones up until last week were really nice.
and then everything changed.
after our trip to the zoo, everything fell over and kind of died.and i have no idea why..
it's awful not being able to pinpoint where something went wrong - because it stops us from really getting closure.
but everything was going so well..
sure, i whinged about little silly things...but they always went away, and everything was good afterwards..
but now, there is no good..it's all awful and horrid..and it's confusing the fuck out of me.
where did my grrl go?
and where has this new (and not-so-improved) person come from..
where did all our shared dreams and plans go to??
and why, all of a sudden, was i such a bad partner...so hard to deal with?
ok...so not thinking about this shit is a tad easier said than done...
i really, really need a distraction
speaking of distraction...i have 6 assignments this semester..and they're all HUGE. so much for me thinking that 2 contact days a week at uni was going to be a breeze...pfft...
but 6 more weeks..6 more weeks before it's all over and i can register and work and do my own thing..
just s-i-x w-e-e-k-s..
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mind you, i some how managed to skip 2 hours worth of lectures, and head out with linnie..but it was good to catch up with her and use her as a bit of a sounding board..
by now, most of my mates know about the situation between sam and i...i wasn't really going to tell many people, but i thought (1) my attitude would probably give it away, and (2) why drag it all out any longer than i need to..
but it was good yakking to linda. she always seems to put things back in perspective. also, because she knows me as well as she does, i tend to really listen to her when she tells me "you're not that bad of a person, dannii"..so yeah..
and god knows i can definately use all the ego boosts that i can get right now..
i've been spending a lot of time reading through old emails from sam. some of them are so lovely..some so awful..but the majority are good. even the ones up until last week were really nice.
and then everything changed.
after our trip to the zoo, everything fell over and kind of died.and i have no idea why..
it's awful not being able to pinpoint where something went wrong - because it stops us from really getting closure.
but everything was going so well..
sure, i whinged about little silly things...but they always went away, and everything was good afterwards..
but now, there is no good..it's all awful and horrid..and it's confusing the fuck out of me.
where did my grrl go?
and where has this new (and not-so-improved) person come from..
where did all our shared dreams and plans go to??
and why, all of a sudden, was i such a bad partner...so hard to deal with?
ok...so not thinking about this shit is a tad easier said than done...
i really, really need a distraction
speaking of distraction...i have 6 assignments this semester..and they're all HUGE. so much for me thinking that 2 contact days a week at uni was going to be a breeze...pfft...
but 6 more weeks..6 more weeks before it's all over and i can register and work and do my own thing..
just s-i-x w-e-e-k-s..
0 comment so far..
jul 2 - fuckers
jun 13 - bored
may 11 - GAMSAT
april 20 - adios
apr 13 - babble