i will try to make this as quick and painless as i can..
it's finaly over..
as of about 4pm this afternoon, the grrl and i are no more.. it's for the better, really.. i have been reading back through my entries in here and my other diary, and it's been obvious for a while that we have too much going against us to make it work..
and i'm exhausted..
i never ever thought i would give up on her..but i've thrown in the towel..and so has she...so it's probably all for the best. not that it doesn't hurt, but i know there is a light at the end of this tunnel, but until i find it i will not give in and wallow in the darkness..
besides, i'm surrounded by good people, and that always makes it easier. she wanted me to leave (demanded, more like it)..so i left. took as much as i could at the time, but will go back for the rest tomorrow. i will not go back this time.
i swore that last time, and i went back.. but there will be no second round.
so yeah..
but i guess it was good while it lasted..
and not exactly how i'd imagined ending the last 12months..