she read the email i sent her..and didn't comment on it at all..
although, i probably didn't seem very approachable.
i get very cold when i think i've been hard done-by...cuz i don't like forgiving anyone in a hurry...part of me is a little cunt who likes people to suffer, even if only a little bit, so that they can have a taste of what it's like to feel bad..
i'm horrid sometimes..
but at least i'm woman enough to admit it.
the grrl went out before...to her sisters...of course, i knew it would be asking too fucking much for her to spend any time with me today. and i am going out later on and tomorrow, so god only knows when i will see her next. and god only knows how fucking worse i will be..
so i sent her a message suggesting that i make an appointment to see her sometime next week so that we could discuss this shit that is our relationship..who knows if we will do it, though...we always know we have to talk, but funnily enough we never do. and sometimes when we do, we don't listen to each other. and i don't know how i will react to being ignored at the moment..
but for now, i am very tired..very very very tired...
i didn't get much sleep last nite when i got home..
spent most of it thinking about some stuff that had been done and said earlier on in the evening...and the direction in which my relationship seems
to be headed...
it's all quite fucked..
ending music: 'this is everything' - tegan and sara
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