i'm so tired..

but i can't go to bed..

for some reason, tonite my mind is running at a million miles an hour, and i dont know what to do to slow it down.
even worse, is i can't actually decipher all the crap and pinpoint any one thing to focus on...it's bizarre...kinda like what i imagine being on speed to feel like (i was on duromine for a while, which is the closest to speed i think i'll ever get - and it made my mind race constantly)

the grrl and i went to bed sometime around 10...but i knew i wouldn't be able to sleep...so we watched some tv, and she started winding down about 10:30...she's so tired...she's working such long hours lately...hell, for the last 2 mornings in a row she's been outta the house before 7.. i mean, fuck...most people dont even get up until 7...and she's almost in the office at that time...and then, to make it worse...she's not getting home until about 6...which is fucked...coz it means she's too tired for us to do anything. not that i mind, cuz when she gets home of a nite i dont really want us to do anything but snuggle anyway...but i'm really scared that she's running herself into the ground, and she's going to get sick again *sighs*..

so..in about 37hours, i'll be back at uni sitting my first exam for the year...and i dont know whether to be excited or scared. i've studied for the last few days..and i feel confident in what i know - but part of me is worried that i just dont know enough...like, they're gonna spring something that isn't in the subject on us, and we're all gonna fizz out and fail...
i'm also freaking out, cuz i've put so much emphasis on this science exam over the last few days, that i haven't even so much as opened a book for the other three...thank god i have the weekend and monday to study for my nursing exam tho, cuz that one really has me freaked. there's just so much to learn - and it is a 3 hour exam...which is hella long...

anyway..it's late....and at the moment i'm teetering on the verge of delirium....although, i must say, i do tend to write better when i'm tired - but right now, who knows what i'm gonna say..

nitey nite.



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