i've decided to head home tomorrow..
mum, nicky and robbie are staying in melbourne until tuesday - but that's too far away for me..besides, classes go back on monday and i really don't want to get in the old cycle of "missing just one day won't hurt"..god only knows i missed enough classes last semester, and i don't think dad would be very happy if i started that again..
so i'm gonna go home, and get all my stuff ready for school - books, paper, stationary - all that jazz...
must admit though, i'm feeling a bit weird about the thought of being home alone for 2 nights...i dunno why...it's never really bothered me before..but anyway, i don't want to think about it too much in case i freak myself out and end up camping out on kater's bean bag.

i'm definately feeling alot better today that i have this past week. colleen told me that once dad was laid to rest, time would speed up again and it would be much easier to move on - and she was right. i'm a little tired, tho..i think that today my body has been trying to compensate for the last 7 nights of broken sleeps...last nite i had a fantastic sleep, and today i had a nap, and i only hope that tonite i can curl up with the grrl and do the same..she is wonderful..she has been so supportive through all of this..i really can not put in to words how much i love and appreciate her at the moment..
but for now, i'm going to go and curl up next to her before we have to spend the next 4 nites apart.
the only good thing about ever being away from her, is how wonderful it is feels to count down the days until i see her again..

also, before i forget, thanks hedge grrl

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