not long ago sam's grandmother was diagnosed with bowel cancer, so over the last month or two, sam has been emailing me a few times a week... keeping me informed on how the lovely old dear is going...which is nice..

i always liked sam's grandmother...although the status of my relationship with sam was never verbalised to her, i'm sure she knew..she knew in only a way that a mother or a grandmother can know that someone is in love with their child or grandchild...and she seemed to respect it. she would always greet me like one of her own, and she'd ask for me if i wasn't present at some family function...and i always felt so comfortable in her presence..like i didn't have to hide the fact that i was her beloved sammo's lover..rather i was just another part of the family...

i actually miss seeing her..i miss how she'd greet me with big, warm polish hugs and kisses...and how she'd always be offering me yummy polish treats. i love that she never made me feel like an outsider.
come to think of it, there wasn't anyone in sam's family that i can say i didn't like..and they we all warm and welcoming. i dont know if any of them were ever "told" that i was the dyke girlfriend..but they must have known...i was at so many family occasions...births..christenings..birthdays...easter...christmas...anyway.. my point, and i do have one, is that it's always unfair when a relationship does come to a sudden end, because all of these people that have become such a part of your life kind of disappear...and you never see or hear from them again. and that kinda sucks.

so i got an email from sam today...telling me that her grandfather had passed away...since her grandmother's illness she could no longer take care of the gradnfather, so he went into a nursing home..which is sad..i liked the old guy..he was a bit eccentric in that old polish way...but he was harmless...i used to love sitting with him and hearing the story about how when he first came to australia he lived in a tent..and how it snowed..and how he eventually saved enough money to buy the house that they still live in...he was a cool old guy...and now...now i have no way other than emailing sam to let the family know that they're in my thoughts...
and that sucks..because i spent so much time with these people..and both happy and sad occasions...

anyway...i got sidetracked and i've totally forgotten my point.



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