the grrl and i took the boys to the show yesterday...and surprisingly, it wasn't anywhere near as hellish as i was expecting. while both rob and locky get along well in small doses, i'd been worried that they'd just go mad in an environment like the show. but they were good (thankflly) and neither of them threw anything that even resembled a tantrum.

rob was supposed to stay here with us last nite, to give mum a break, but after the long day at the show and just knowing i had to finish my community assignment, i decided to drop him back off with mum. i dont think either of them was very impressed with me, but they just dont understand how much pressure i have at uni at the moment...for some reason, they think because i've technically finished all my classes for this degree, that i can slack off...but no...i still have 4 assignments and 2 take-home exams to get done all my october 17th. talk about pressure..but they'll get over it...i was just so exhausted last nite..

the grrl decided to work from home today, which is nice...it's nice being able to see her sitting there working whenever i pop my head up from my assignment *smiling*..
we had a bit of an argument on saturday nite..which resulted in us both going out and avoiding each other until yesterday morning..but we're both over it now. it was a shame though, because it was our first real niggle in quite a long time...but at least we seem to get over our shit a little faster thesedays...which is good.
and i'm sure the fact that we both had our periods didn't help. damn these synchronised cycles!

after spending the entire day surrounded by screaming kids yesterday, on the way home i made some comment about "never wanting kids"..and i don't think that went down too well with the grrl...i know that one day she'd like to have a family of her own..but i really don't know if she'd consider doing it if she wasn't in a stable heterosexual relationship (is there such a thing??)..but anyway...i have been meaning to talk to her about that, but sometimes i just can't bring myself to start such serious conversations..which is a bitch...considering it's about something that could either make or break us.
i do love her to death..and i wanna grow old and insane with her - and it just drives me to distraction knowing that i can not give her the one thing that she wants so badly..

but anyway..

i'm sure i'll speak to her about it eventually...

now back to this damn assignment...ugh...i'm so over all this academic bullshit. just give me my degree goddammit!!



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