here i have this spunky blonde chick interesded in me...me of all people..and i can't even get it together enough to kiss her *slapping my forhead*...can someone please come and tell me why i am such a fucking fuckwit???? d'oh!
so yeh..last nite the girl and i went to brunswick to see monique brumby...i love monique's music..and i like spending time with sam...so it was hopefully going to be a good nite.
hmmmm
all was well at first...she picked me up from dandenong train station (which, i've gotta say was a very long train trip)...we had a lovely dinner together [thai in brunswick street]...even the beginning of monique's show was great...
then bammm!!!!
she leaned in to kiss me and i totally fucking freaked! i mean, i almost physically pushed her away from me!
*slapping myself in the forhead for the 100th time*
god - linda always told me i really do know how to squish a girl's ego, and i guess i confirmed it again for myself that nite..*chuckling in an embarassed kinda way*
but after what seemed like an uncomfortable eternity...things did warm up
*laughing*
i can be so fucking pathetic sometimes...
it's funny though...my reaction to kissing the girl is soooo not a linda thing (as most people would assume). i am over linda...so over her that it actually offends me when people think that i'm not.
it's just that i haven't actually touched or even thought about anyone since linda, and the girl kinda caught me by surprise...i guess what also adds to it is that i wonder what a girl like her sees in a chick like me.
but sometimes i think i wonder too much.
i like her..
and i would like to get to know her better...
so hopefully next time we go out (we're off to the movies tomorrow)..i won't be such a butthead...
stay tuned for the next installment -dannii...who really has to stop being such a fuckwit