sometimes i wish there was a magic pill that i could take that would make me forget..
not forget everything...just the feelings. the lonliness...the longling... i dont want to forget her completely...i just want to forget loving her...so that i wouldn't know what it i i feel i'm missing out on. then i could move on...settle down with miss right...and everything would be good. at least, it would be good because i wouldn't know any better.
i once wrote that i truely believed that i would be incapable of loving someone else how i loved her..and here, now, 14months later - i still believe that. dont get me wrong...i do not believe that i am totally incapable of loving. i'm just broken and incapable of loving that much.
i need to stop thinking of all this stuff, though..i need to nip it all in the bud as soon as it gets in my head, otherwise i wind up consumed by thoughts of her..which really isn't all that bad, but also isn't all that healthy..
*sighs*
please someone, invent that pill..because i really would like to forget..