august 5 - more hypocricy [2003-08-05 @ 9:22 a.m.]
so it's official..she is a hypocrite..
after a hellacious month of her telling me "i don't want a relationship", "you would be so much better off without me", "i dont think that i know what love it", and my all time favourite "just get the fuck out of my life"..she has decided that she hates me because i crossed a line.
i crossed a line??
how hypocritical..
she asked me when i crawled in on saturday morning whether or not i'd gotten up to no good, and i outright, blatantly lied and said "no".. she smiled.. she was happy with that.. she also failed to tell me she'd been no good with the beautiful boy i wrote about eariler.. honestly, i wish she had have told me because not only would it have made me feel less guilty, but i would have been able to share one last little piece of happiness with her. but no, she feels she doesn't have to tell me anything (and really, she doesn't).. but i think she's a fucking hypocrite to be bent out of shape because i did pretty much the same thing she did. although, i should know by now that what is good for the goose, is never good for the gander..
but i so honestly don't give a shit anymore..
if she wants me gone, fine..i'll give her that in abundance. because not only do i not want to waste my time with horrible people..but i have no reason to give my time to those who think they are better than me..
she is a hypocrite.. and i am happy..
oh yeah..she did kill my internet connection..so i probably wont be online from mum's for a while..which is a good thing, considering the amount of assignments i have to get through in the next month.. but yeah..
on a brighter note, i am off to melbourne today to pick up nance and bring her down here for a few days..no pressure..no expectations..just getting to know a great person a little better.. so yeah..that's the plan for my day..i'm taking pog along with me, because i haven't been spending nearly as much time with him as i should be. and he's so excited..
but more on this later..i just wanna head off into the city..