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may 14 [2002-05-14 @ 11:09 p.m.]
listening to: 'rain' patti griffin
fuck what a cunt of a day today has been *kicking my desk* i'm just glad that it's almost midnight -which means that it's nearly over. so i'm listening to a lot of patti griffin lately, coz hedge mentioned her and i started madly downloading her stuff. this song, 'rain' is really good. in fact, it's been on repeat pretty much since i downloaded it. but yeah..back to my day.. well it started out ok.. but i digress.. later on in the morning i went into morwell and headed over to linda's to pack all my shit up and bring it over here. when i got there, i was actually quite surprised (not to mention pleased) that everything had already been packed and all that i really had to do was help them unpack it. i spent a little while at linda's where i had the pleasure of dodging daggers from fuckmongrel....god that woman shits me... i know she can't stand me (i'm glad actually, coz the feeling is mutual) but i just wish she wasn't so fucking sickeningly pathetic..*gagging*..really, linda's life is her own - but for fucks sake, can someone please explain to me what she sees in that cretin?? sometimes i feel bad having this much dislike and contempt for this woman - afterall, she is linda's girlfriend and i should respect that. but i really do have a hard time thinking anything but evil viscious thoughts about her. it's not a jealousy thing...good god no it's not. i'm so over linda and i'm really happy that things ended the way they did coz she's moved on and i've moved on with sam - but that woman - fuck, she's as irritating as nails on a chalkboard! but enough of this... i guess the main reason that my day has been so fucking bad is cuz sam and i were fighting. everything was great this morning, then after i got home from linda's i was on-line chatting with sam and she told me i sounded *weird*..and that i "always sound weird after i've been with linda"..at first i got my back up, but then i agreed that 'yeah, i suppose i do'..and then bammm!..WW3 almost broke out...for about an hour we bitched to each other via MSN and e-mail..and then after that we resorted to nasty SMS's.. man it just got so fucking out of hand.!! i can partly see sam's point of view - that it annoys her when i *react* to spending time with linda...but i don't think it's for the reasons that sam thinks it it. fuck the one thing i really fucking hate is when the person i am with doubts what i feel for them. i know that the subject of ex's is touchy for her...it always has been, and always will be. but for god's sake, there's as much chance of me dumping sam and running back to linda as there is...ummm...errrr...*trying to think of something that would NEVER happen* - as there is of me running off and having an affair with fuckmongrel! *ugh*.. linda and i have a past..and that will never change. in fact, i wouldn't want that to change, because i really believe that my relationship and breakup with linda taught me a hell of a lot and made me a much better person because of the experience. sure, linda aren't as friendly as we used to be..and we're probably less friendly than we have the potential to be - but we're still friends. i can understand sam having a problem with linda - afterall, she's the only one of my ex's that i think so highly of...but she's also always going to be there in my life some way or another.
anyway..enough of all this.. jul 2 - fuckers jun 13 - bored may 11 - GAMSAT april 20 - adios apr 13 - babble |